Life is pretty crazy as usual but I'm okay with that. I'm getting back on track with everything and I'm pretty happy about that. I'm reading Mother Teresa's book with a bunch of her letters to people and stuff. It's really good so far. It's been teaching me a lot. This is one of the passages that really got me:
"Now Father-since 49 or 50 this terrible sense of loss- this continual longing for God- which gives me that pain deep down in my heart. - Darkness is such that I really do not see- neither with my mind nor with my reason. - The place of God in my soul is blank.- There is no God in me.-When the pain of longing is so great- I just long & long for God- and then it is that I feel- He does not want me- He is not there.- ... God does not want me.- Sometimes- I just hear my own heart cry out- "My God" and nothing else comes.- The torture and pain I can't explain.-"
Yeah so she uses a lot of dashes in all of her writings. It's kinda hard to get used to but of well. Anyways...you would have to read a little of the book to see how all the darkness and stuff she was talking about really connected her with Jesus. But I think all the things she went through before she actually started helping the poor people in India is really cool. So you should read it. Ha. Yeah, so that's about all I can think about at the moment since I've been up since 6 this morning :/
